by C S » Mon Jan 24, 2011 1:38 am
"Why must you always come here, raptor?" The question came as a growl- a familiar growl. Familiar because it was his voice, speaking to him. Aircrest raised his head up from the ground- or what could be called a ground. It was strange terrain, a stretch of warped floor that was a blend of dirt, mud, sand, rock and the hard gray and black turf that was prominent in the human world. The raptor looked around him, seeing nothing, saying nothing. "What is it do you want to find by retreating here?" Again, he said nothing. He simply put his head down again, staring off into his surroundings. Jagged structures made from unnatrual rock blended with vegetation, a hanging mist obscuring the raptor's sight. In the distance, rock faces stood, crumbling silently. The only sounds he could have heard were the sound of the ocean. "Where is your reality?" The voice asked. "Not here" The green raptor replied with a hiss. "So why are you here?"
"I dont know" He said. "Are you used to drifting to places without a reason why?"
"In some ways" Aircrest replied. "Do you enjoy that kind of existence?"
"Yes" Aircrest replied. "Its a life not restrained"
"Is it really?" The voice inquired. Aircrest raised a scaley eyebrow. "I go anywhere any time I want. Anything that I do is of my own choice, so I would think so"
"Is it your choice to come here then?"
"I already said I dont know" Aircrest barked. "So it wasnt your own choice?"
"I said I dont know. I cant answer that if I dont know the answer" Aircrest hissed. "You are restrained by your own mind?"
“No” Aircrest growled. “Anything I do or don’t do is of my own free will”
“So it was your choice to feel guilt and sadness?” The raptor was silent. “Do you choose not to respond?” Again, Aircrest said nothing. “Is it-“
“Enough!” Aircrest snapped. “Whats the purpose of all this?”
“I simply want to know why you choose to come to this realm when you have such a great life elsewhere” The voice replied. “That life…is painful. Theres happiness…but there is much more sorrow” Aircrest growled. “So happiness is something to be cherished?”
“You can say that” The green raptor replied. “So why do you linger in the painful past, instead of looking to the future?”
“Because the past cannot be forgotten. Its something I accept now. I cant help looking back on it, so as to make sure it cant ever happen again. To make sure I don’t make the same mistakes twice. Even then, the future holds much pain and sorrow regardless”
“Are you afraid of the future?”
“I’d be a fool if I didn’t fear inevitabillity. I know for a fact there will be times of suffering. I know for a fact that no matter how much times I evade death, I will eventually die. Even then, I’d be a greater fool if I let it control my life” Aircrest snarled.
“Do you fear pain?”
“I sure as hell don’t like it” The raptor snorted.
“What do you think existence would be like without pain?”
“Existence would be… strange. Without pain and sorrow…there would just be happiness” Aircrest growled.
“An existence without pain” The voice began to say, “Would mean you’ve died. Pain is a part of life. It only serves to magnify the moments of true happiness few are able to experience. Your abillity to feel pain is only proof that you are still alive. “
The raptor felt a sharp jab against the side of his head. His eyes shot open and he jolted onto his feet, claws at the ready. His gaze shot around his environment before looking up to the sound of beating wings. A seabird looking for an easy meal, thinking the slumbering raptor was dead. “Damn things are getting bold” Aircrest hissed, rubbing his cheek against the back of his hand.
